Deficient.

I am a mess.  Truly.  But I live in Grace.  I am fighting for the JOY of my salvation.

But it turns out I’m also Iron-deficient.  I’ve never been so happy to be deficient in something before.  But I’m so thankful for this…God helped me to know much of what was going on in me was physical…I thank him for that.

I looked over my last “blog binge” realizing there was SO much between the lines of what I wrote…I know that my physical should always help me to see my spiritual…Dave and I talked–this is a beautiful picture…we are so deficient without Christ, without His LIFE in us. Without His joy–without his Strength.  In my WEAKNESS, I can boast…i can press in TO KNOW CHRIST.  Maybe Christ gives us deeper awareness of our weakness in seasons where we are told we must be stronger…we must be stable…we must be ‘together’…I love taking Iron pills know that in a couple weeks, I’ll feel stronger, but I think God wanted me to look more at my heart…He needs to be all.  I want to depend more.  I want to cry out more. I want to THANK HIM more.  I want to REST more.  I want to worship more.  Oh, God…Keep me weak…I want your strength. I delight in YOUR strength.

To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. ~ 2 Corinthians 12:7-10