This week is passing quicklyâŚthe boxes are stacking higherâŚIâve sorted, packed, thrown, reminisced over so much. There is joy in this release, but there is also a lot of letting go. It is hard when a goodbye begins 2 months before it actually happensâŚfamily members soak in the sweetness of the kidsâŚeyes fill with tears often. There are moments where suddenly and unexpectedly the goodbye hits someone and the grieving hits. It is so strange to be the cause of itâŚbut the JOY is still there, in the obedience. I pack and sort and wonder why I put certain things in those big black tubsâŚwhy I give certain things to Mom to put in her atticâŚwhy do the âthingsâ matterâŚmostly they donât.
This week, we sell everything else thatâs not in those big black boxes. I pray for a freeing release from much of the material things that have marked our lives for so many yearsâŚ.I pray for a filling of our souls with more of Jesus. Right now, I feel pretty much exhausted..so there is alot of numbnessâŚI donât like that. I want to be FULL âŚof life, of joy, of sorrowâŚbut not disconnected. Thereâs just so much to let go of, to process, to EMBRACE. I want to celebrate this process too!
Ella hugs me so much through the dayâŚ
Caleb reads and cries oftenâŚ
Maija is passionately unaware most of the time and just keeps reminding me to pack her flower shirt! And her stuffed animals! She makes creative things out of all the tubsâŚthe lids are now sleds pulled behind all her stuffed animals!
Riah is gone so much I donât even think she realizes that life is going to change SOON. She is doing awesomeâŚusing her left hand so well even after one week!! She can now feed herself with her âleftyâ!! We are amazed and so thankful! Healing and strength are happening in the midst of all this!
Evie throws some crazy tantrumsâŚand can be the most delightful. She has started saying, âYou âmember Mommy, this isnât our home anymore?â She also asks almost every day if weâre going to âOpiaâ today!! Oh, poor little one, she is so confused in her worldâŚpray for her spirit to be at peace in all this.
ALL THISâŚHe is in in allâŚwould you pray we would have eyes wide open to see HIM in it all? We want to praise Him and give each step of this journey back as an offeringâŚsome of my offerings probably arenât so pretty right now. Iâm so thankfulâŚLife is SO FULLâŚHE IS FILLING.
Now Iâm thanking Him for thisâŚmy reading THIS morningâŚ
And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you. âFear not, little flock, for tit is your Fatherâs good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions, and give to the needy. Provide yourselves with moneybags that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. (Lk 12:29â34).