This week is passing quickly…the boxes are stacking higher…I’ve sorted, packed, thrown, reminisced over so much. There is joy in this release, but there is also a lot of letting go. It is hard when a goodbye begins 2 months before it actually happens…family members soak in the sweetness of the kids…eyes fill with tears often. There are moments where suddenly and unexpectedly the goodbye hits someone and the grieving hits. It is so strange to be the cause of it…but the JOY is still there, in the obedience. I pack and sort and wonder why I put certain things in those big black tubs…why I give certain things to Mom to put in her attic…why do the ‘things’ matter…mostly they don’t.
This week, we sell everything else that’s not in those big black boxes. I pray for a freeing release from much of the material things that have marked our lives for so many years….I pray for a filling of our souls with more of Jesus. Right now, I feel pretty much exhausted..so there is alot of numbness…I don’t like that. I want to be FULL …of life, of joy, of sorrow…but not disconnected. There’s just so much to let go of, to process, to EMBRACE. I want to celebrate this process too!
Ella hugs me so much through the day…
Caleb reads and cries often…
Maija is passionately unaware most of the time and just keeps reminding me to pack her flower shirt! And her stuffed animals! She makes creative things out of all the tubs…the lids are now sleds pulled behind all her stuffed animals!
Riah is gone so much I don’t even think she realizes that life is going to change SOON. She is doing awesome…using her left hand so well even after one week!! She can now feed herself with her ‘lefty’!! We are amazed and so thankful! Healing and strength are happening in the midst of all this!
Evie throws some crazy tantrums…and can be the most delightful. She has started saying, “You ‘member Mommy, this isn’t our home anymore?” She also asks almost every day if we’re going to “Opia” today!! Oh, poor little one, she is so confused in her world…pray for her spirit to be at peace in all this.
ALL THIS…He is in in all…would you pray we would have eyes wide open to see HIM in it all? We want to praise Him and give each step of this journey back as an offering…some of my offerings probably aren’t so pretty right now. I’m so thankful…Life is SO FULL…HE IS FILLING.
Now I’m thanking Him for this…my reading THIS morning…
And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you. “Fear not, little flock, for tit is your Father’s good pleasure to give you the kingdom. Sell your possessions, and give to the needy. Provide yourselves with moneybags that do not grow old, with a treasure in the heavens that does not fail, where no thief approaches and no moth destroys. For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also. (Lk 12:29–34).